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A lot has happened in the two years since my last post. I've realized a lot of things about my life, and made a lot of necessary changes. Looking through the post of the past I realize how little I knew about life. I still don't believe that I know more about life than anyone else, but I know that life isn't about understanding. Life is about progress. Constantly trying to achieve. Constantly trying to improve yourself and your conditions. Constantly wanting to be something more than what we are today.
There are so many great things going on these days. I have been so abundantly blessed that its hard for me to put in words what I really want to say. Know this though, I have beautiful friends. My friends have continued to stick with me regardless of my emotional or spiritual condition. I know now, that its friends like these that provide a necessary crutch when you are too weak to stand. Friends are inspiration. Also know this, I am dating an amazing person. She is a constant reminder of what is good in this world. She inspires me, and encourages me to be a better person. I look forward to spending more time with her.
there is so much more to this life than we will ever know.
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| i'll save these kicked out teeth in a bottle. |
[07 Jan 2005|12:31am] |
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i hate this post already. and nothing that i say from here on out will save it. i guess if this was all that mattered i would've lost a long time ago. i should've known that i could never change it. im just the washed out boat on the shore that kids come by and kick. im made of wood. i get easily excited when you consider taking me into the water. and im quick to disappointment when you get scared of sinking. i counted the footprints you left in the sand. i counted nine before the waves forced them back into the earth. maybe on the next sunrise, someone will risk it all to tackle the vast ocean with me. forever can't come too soon.
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| live journal is for suckers |
[04 Jan 2005|12:34am] |
god, thanks for making the sunrise so beautiful. it's a constant reminder of your glory. and thank you for leaving the sunset open to interpretation. i can't wait until i can find someone to compare your paintings to. i believe you built the sun to rise and fall for me, so that i can give it so someone who means something to me.
i want this.
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| too many songs are dedicated to the new years. |
[01 Jan 2005|03:52pm] |
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well zac was right. last night was about friends. i've never seen my band as happy as i did while we were playing last night. it was freaking wonderful. the inheritance shuffled in a great time. its sad that aaron couldn't stay but i understand his situtation. i loved everyone who came last night. i can't freaking believe casey almost lit buckeyes house on fire. im still CHOKED up about that. ----that was a pun. I made some new friends last night. i caught up with some old ones. and everything changed. even in the places in my life where i was confused, i dont understand, but i dont need to. i've decided that im perfectly happy reading my life in a book and not skipping ahead. no longer do i want to know the next step. i just want to be a part of the next step. i want this post to be about someone. but i don't know how to talk about it. so i'll continue to not say a word and wait for confrontation to take me by the ear and lead me to a private room. to my band - thanks. to a girl i adore in ohio -thanks. to matt carmer - thanks. to the year 2004 - it was cool hanging out with you. i wanted to go through and thank each person at the show individually but im so scared i'll miss someone and feel like a jerk. im going back to seinfeld.
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[28 Dec 2004|11:10pm] |
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it was a grand night....great friends.....punkinhead is looking smooth ladies watch out...i was blessed last night because of a few things....i dont know why god has mercy on me...but im glad....im so confused its ridiculous....my mom lost one of my christmas presents...she just told me last night...thats really funny...im going to bed.
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| good morning heroes |
[09 Dec 2004|08:46pm] |
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wow....im updating my livejournal...justin is probably sighing a sigh of relief...i dont think i have any avid lj readers but if i do im sorry i havent updated in a month...show tomorrow...great line up...great show...its garuntee to rock your atleast one sock off...the phoenix rising is playing...the kill...so does last flight home...i feel blessed being able to play with these guys and get to see them....we've been playing with the inheritance more...they are way cool...good friends of ours now...i think soon we will be band buddies fo shizzle...went to THC tonight with my mom, brother, and his fiance....it was a pretty okay time...we ate at taco casita which is always nice...we went christmas shopping...lots of pretty ladies in the mall....someone said hey..you are in theredracer...i think i blushed....is it so bad that all i want is to take a girl to look at christmas lights?...thats seriously all i want right now...i want a romantic date....im not sure...i think julie and i are supposed to get married...whatever...its just forever i guess...my friends are pretty cool fellas....buckeye is going to help me pimp out the pad...he's good at that...he's a pimp....i've been seeing swirl and punkinhead a lot...thats great....beau is learning the piano...getting good at it too....so i called amanda tonight...i dont know why....because she's F-ing gorgeous i guess...anyway i left a message about matts picture....and she called me back after a few minutes...we talked for awhile...she has a serious boyfriend now named perry....i the crap can i compete with perry...thats a sweet A name....oh well...perry's a lucky guy...she wanted my sn and she asked me to call her back though...maybe i can F up perry and prove to amanda that im a real man....just kidding obviously....well im out.
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| thanksgiving eve |
[25 Nov 2004|02:11am] |
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its actually thanksgiving. starting off mediochre...i feel like anus....i dont really know what to put in this update...sorry i haven't updated for a long time...i dont like writing about things if they dont make sense to me....i still dont really know whats going on...racer is recording this weekend....thats good.....alright...i guess this post doesnt matter...if you get this far i guess you dont need me to tell you to skip over mine...because you've already wasted this much of your time...but in case i keep rambling click down on your scroll button to save the next few seconds (or minutes if your justin...just kidding) of your life....supposed to snow...thats neat.
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| (akward silence) |
[20 Nov 2004|06:00pm] |
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this life is circumstantial (lame.) i can't believe i even said that. i did miss you this weekend though. i feel like poo right now. on top of that i found out she had a boyfriend this entire time. good time last night. i'll write later though.
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| irresponsibility....me? |
[16 Nov 2004|09:28am] |
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School isn't going so well right now...and as i am writing this im actually starting to care...the whole process of the education system has never really interested me much...well i guess i can't go as far to say that im intrigued by school now....more that im just worried about school now...oh well i guess....freaking racer better get signed soon or im doomed....everyone should act like we are your favorite band so people think we are good....maybe Universal will pick us up then...alright...see ya irresponsibility
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| amen |
[13 Nov 2004|11:32pm] |
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this is the only thing i wanted to do before i went to bed...but i should've known if i signed on my AIM that i was going to be hammered....this will be a brief synopsis of my weekend because im super tired....friday night racer took pictures with matt carmer...that man can take pictures like its no ones business...anyway we were all being stupid and immature and then these two beautiful girls come up...one i know...and one i dont...and it turns out that a while back my friends and i found a cell phone sitting at a table..so we took our picture on it and set it as a background....well this beautiful girl that i didnt know...it happened to be her cell phone....this to me was the funny crap ever....im pretty sure she doesnt read my live journal so i think its safe to say that she is absolutely gorgeous and she has my phone number so i hope she calls me....anyway back on track now...today i woke up gay early because my dog was being a douche...me matt, buck, and justin went to michigan city...matt got a sweet chest plate...we saw a car being jacked....a possible murder...we walked on the beach...jumped down huge sand dunes...almost died in the car...and took the most random roads indiana has to offer...im positive that matt is the nicest guy ever...even though most people dont understand him...he has the best intentions of anyone....i like that kid a lot....well i guess i'll talk more about this later...i've already fallen asleep during this.
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| i'll post when i feel like posting....gosh. |
[08 Nov 2004|12:45am] |
so i guess its time to post...i generally post about once a week now...i guess its because im lame...i'll just start with friday...friday was pretty lame...i worked...then sat around at my house until justin showed up after work...we went to super walmart...im glad i got to hang out with him atleast though...saturday i slept in until about 10...zac came over..buckeye called...he wanted to go eat somewhere...so the three of us went to eat...we all went to the show...we had a pretty good time...i was pretty happy with everything...except the sound guys...i met some new people (i might be making that up..because i can't think of any...but im sure i did)...kyle was surrounded by 15 year olds....i jumped off grandma death into the arms of a large man...and i rode on a 2x12 combo down a hill stratling buckeye....today i slept in (i know, i know)...went to my moms where i barely missed an expirience that would've changed my life....i was a minute or two in front of the biggest car accident clinton has seen in years....a semi truck driving full speed ran a light and hit a jeep liberty....it was terrible...in fact i dont really want to talk about it...i ate dinner with my family..that was nice...i came home and hung out with tyler for a few...randomly hung out with rose over zac....talked to swirl...called julie...wow...this weekend was ghetto suck....im getting some more tats on saturday i do believe...i am a little nervous to be truthful...alright im going to bed...sorry i put you through reading this.
much love.
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| february is the cruelest month |
[30 Oct 2004|01:28am] |
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tonights show was pretty ok....a lot more people than i expected showed up...thanks to all who came...sorry that my performance was below par..wont happen again i promise you...we have the recording date set...im pumped...im really tired....just basically wanted to see if my friends have posted...but i ended up posting...well killers...i love you.
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[29 Oct 2004|02:41pm] |
work is ripping my balls off....i already went this morning...then i was late for school because of it...now im going again...as soon as i get off i have to pack for the show....im going to fall asleep on my keys. it doesnt matter..i love playing. talked to jon hook earlier...hes a cool guy...we are recording in late november..i get to see my friends tonight....i've been very bipolar in my moods lately....i think im going through metapause...i hope a lot of people show up tonight....im writing this for you.
"if i could" mineral.
She stepped outside into the morning air
To watch the cars go by and let the sun dry her hair
I wanted to tell her how beautiful she was
But I just stared
I sat behind the wheel and watched the raindrops
As they gathered on the windshield
And raced down into the humming motor
And she folded up her fears like paper airplanes
And lost them in the trees
And I know I don't deserve this
The capacity to feel
To laugh and to cry and to praise
For that I live and breathe and wake each day
Is nothing less than your grace
In awkward and glorious movement
note from dan - i hope you get as much out of it as i have.
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| paint tonight in your memories. |
[27 Oct 2004|11:16pm] |
my long reigning best friend just left...pumpkinhead is a cool dude....i got a call from a wicked awesome chick who made my night with two words...i swear she has to know that she's gorgeous...people have been sending me pictures of her....oh well...enough sappyness....work was lame...tyler was hyper...school sucked....thats about it...no more news from ole danny....let me know if anyone wants to hang out or chat. later
p.s. my favorite thing about live journal is reading peoples subject lines.
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| tomorrow will reign forever. |
[26 Oct 2004|01:40pm] |
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man...i have something on my mind that no matter how hard i try...i can't stop thinking about it...and before everyone jumps to the conclusion...its not something that is bad...by any means...actually its relatively good...its just controlling the left side of my brain right now...and its something that is basically not feasable...i hung out with my mom last night at her house...it was a great time...i really love my mom and she has and always will be the strongest person i know...i hadnt seen her for quite awhile...my dad came over to help me fix my furnace....i actually think we have it fixed (+1800 pts. in the account) however...the bad news is it might be rusted through and be releasing carbon monoxide in my house...which if any of you dont know what it is...its basically the silent killer...you can't taste it or smell it...you just die...so i have a carbon monoxide detector in my house...hopefully it works...lol...if it doesn't work i want racer to play with elton john at my funeral...and i want mineral to play love letter typerwriter....but im not planning on that happening...so anyway...back to this thing i can't get off my mind...i just dont know...its hard to talk about without talking about...but i dont feel comfortable bringing it up to the world because it could save the world...and i dont feel like the best candidate to save the world right now...if jordan is reading this...your voice mail is F-ing halarious...i want everyone to call him...its pretty good stuff....anyway...everyone have a great day...im off to work...if someone wants to call me and hang out tonight in down. even you julie.
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| bubble's dressed as figurines |
[25 Oct 2004|06:07pm] |
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pumpkinhead has the right to complain...gas is ridiculous...speaking of pumpkinhead...he's a cool kid...probably one of the coolest...if you dont know him you should get to know him...im feeling pretty lousy today..i skipped school to rest a little...a little turned into a lot...my dad is on his way to help me fix my furnace...i can't do crap without his help...i figure one day i can learn enough from him to possibly take care of my family by myself...i have this really nervous feeling about something...i just want to talk to my friends...every single one of them....i want them all to show up individually and stay for an hour and then leave so the next one can stop by...everyone from kyle to armond...i like zac's new lyrics....my dad is here...peace
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| "i still think your gorgeous" |
[24 Oct 2004|10:49pm] |
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man...this weekend...thats all i can get out after a solid hour of thinking about it....i've learned so much...about life, my band, me....if you want to know more just ask me...because its so hard for me to describe bliss with more than one word....i know that i have some best friends in ohio that changed my life this weekend by almost dying...and i know that i was glad that one of my best friends here decided to drive with me to ohio...i would've died if i drove alone...and i also know that i was so happy to find out that my other best friends made it home safe in another unsafe van...i love life. i love music. i love falling asleep with someone that i secretly care about. i love driving with fog so thick its like pea soup. i love goodbyes because they mean better welcome homes. i have so mcuh to write but im not going to...i'll ruin it. good night america.
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| a journey long forgotten. |
[15 Oct 2004|10:55am] |
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so i got up this morning...late like usual....when i got out of the shower i realized it was alrady the time that i normally leave....and i hate walking into classes late....so i didnt go....how many time have i been to that class in the last 2 weeks? 2. yes 2. holy crap i hope he doesnt count off for attendance....i've had an A on every test and quiz in there....so im sure he isn't going to flunk me or anything...but geez...i need to start trying a lot harder at everything...especially life...that one seems pretty important (so my mom says)...some good news is that canterbury effect is playing our show on the 22nd in terre haute....their cd "An excerise in humility" is probably on my top 7 cd list of all time....which is pretty impressive i think...they are just a three piece now but their new stuff is outstanding...Racer needs to practice like a ho....we havent practiced in forever....i dont even see the guys all that much...if you are reading this you should copy and paste this to everyone on your buddy list...
Hey...you should go to the red racer show next friday...its in Terre Haute by the Sky King airport...Goodwen and Canterbury effect are playing it...plus its free....if you need a ride or something just email the band at their site...www.theredracer.com
we definetly need help promoting this show.....if you actually did that i love you.
dan black is coming home tonight...we are hanging out....i haven't seen him for a really long time...we might hit on some chicks.
have a good day.
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| the power rangers could kill your best friend.... |
[12 Oct 2004|11:05pm] |
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So i still dont really have much to post about...its actually rather lame and im disspointed in myself and in my life for not being more excited...i wish i had a way to hang out with will more...i feel bad because we haven't hung out much...but we live too far apart...have too much to do...and dont have enough money...but we are going to the mewithoutyou/owen show...which is promising...we are playing a free show with goodwen in terre haute on the 22nd...if you are reading this you should tell as many people as you possibly can...it would help me out a bunch...justin plank...aka pumkinhead has a live journal now...its safe to say that its going to be the gayest thing you've ever read (kiding)....anyway im going back to not doing anything....but i just wanted the goodwen kids to know that the trophey is sitting above my computer...and its going to stay there.
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